Who cares?

Well this is it. 2 years. I had a hard time choosing a song to post today. I had several possibilities picked out but considering recent developments most of them weren't applicable anymore.

If you had asked me last week how I felt about today I would have invited you over to get drunk with me. I was feeling really depressed about hitting that 2 year mark with (what I felt was) nothing to show for it. How had I been single for 2 whole years? Why couldn't I just move on already?

And I mean it's not like I hadn't been trying.

All I knew up until now was that I really didn't want to still be single at 2 years. What a failure! And how embarrassing. I was definitely feeling anxious about it.

But God is good. He knows what we need before we even ask it. And His timing is perfect (though that is still a lesson I struggle with) and He will give us what we need when we need it.

I'm not saying this new relationship is super serious or anything, just that it came when it needed to. And it's new and exciting and I'm enjoying it and plan to continue to enjoy it for however long that is. All possibilities are open at this point and I'm not gonna worry about the future. I'm going to enjoy what I have for now.

Last night I told my friend that today would be the 2 year mark and he replied "so what? Who cares?" And he was right.

I don't care as much as I thought I would. And that's good.