Christmas Pics!

Dec 21, 2011, a set on Flickr.

Xmas Favorites

Christmas Jammies! Christmas Eve "dinner" Christmas breakfast Laughing so hard it hurts Family games! Watching movies "Remember when....." Birthday shopping!!

12.19.10

Has it really been a year?

"Three sleepless nights
This isn't how its supposed to be.
But you're so good at
taking your time to get back to me.

I will wait for you forever,
if you would just ask me.
I thought that I could change you
but you changed me.

It doesn't feel right,
holding someone else's hand.Together on phone lines,
and living at two opposite ends.

It scares me to think,
that you could find takers other than me
and better than me.

But your head is elsewhere,
and I’m talking enough for both of us.
When will you see it's not so easy for me
You’re careless, and whispered, insulting, and bruising.
(I fall from your eyes, your eyes I trusted)
And I thought that you said things were improving.
(I fall from your eyes, you said forever)
These laces are untied, (I fall from your eyes...)
but my feet are still walking away.
Away

I never thought that you could say these words.
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words. (Don't say...)
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words. (Don't say that we can...)
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words. (Don't say that we can still be...)
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words. (Don't say that we can still be friends)
Is this really happening?
Erase my name from this page.

How can you take all these days
(What is inside of me what have I done?)
and throw them away(Is this the only way that you will notice me?)
as I sit here waiting for you?
(Dead words for closed ears all this is sung for you)

I stay up nights
(If you are still pretending this is what's right)
until stars leave the sky
(Why can't you look at me can you only see?)
knowing what my dreams can take away
(One side, your side, can take away)
Walk away from me.
This night is done."
Emery - The Ponytail Parades

Chi Chis

Let's just take a minute to reflect on how awesome my boobs are. And might I say that they look especially good today.

Hello.

If in order to have one it means you cannot have the other, how then is it possible to want them both equally and simultaneously?

Logic fails me.

How do I choose?

Yes, or no?

Courage

Courage is what it takes to stand up and speak; courage is also what it takes to sit down and listen.  ~Winston Churchill


Sometimes the biggest act of courage is a small one.  ~Lauren Raffo


No one has yet computed how many imaginary triumphs are silently celebrated by people each year to keep up their courage.  ~Henry S. Haskins


Courage is never to let your actions be influenced by your fears.  ~Arthur Koestler

Monday

"Three Cheers For Five Years" - Mayday Parade

I swear that you don't have to go, I thought we could wait for the fireworks

I thought we could wait for the snow

To wash over Georgia and kill the hurt

I thought I could live in your arms and spend every moment I had with you

Stay up all night with the stars

Confess all the faith that I had in you (I had in you)

Too late, I'm sure, and lonely

Another night, another dream wasted on you

Just be here now, against me

You know the words, so sing along for me baby

For Heaven's sake, I know you're sorry, but you wont stop crying

This anniversary may never be the same

Inside I hope you know I'm dying, with my heart beside me, in shattered pieces that, may never be replaced

And if I died right now, you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart

Together would find us an opening

And moonlight would provide the spark

And that I would stumble across your key

Or break down the door to your heart

Forever could see us, not you and me

And you'd help me out of the dark

And I give my heart as an offering (An offering)

Too late, I'm sure, and lonely

Another night, another dream wasted on you

Just be, here now

Against me

You know the words, so sing along for me baby

For Heaven's sake, I know you're sorry, but you wont stop crying

This anniversary may never be the same

Inside I hope you know I'm dying, with my heart beside me, In shattered pieces that, may never be replaced

And if I died right now, you'd never be the same

And I... Will always... Remember you as, you are right now to me

And I... Will always... Remember you now, remember you now... 

Oh... 

So sleep alone tonight

With no one here just by your side

Sleep alone tonight

How does he feel? How does he kiss? 

How does he taste while he's on your lips? 

I can't forget you

I know you want me to want you, I want to

But I can't forget you

So when this is over, don't blow your composure, baby

I can't forget you

I know you want me to want you, I want to

But I can't forget you

So when this is over don't blow your composure, baby

I can't forget you... 

I know you want me to want you, I want to...

Winter Wonderland

Dear Sun,

     Please melt the snow on my driveway so that I won't have to shovel.

Love, Me

Xmas List

The things on my Christmas list aren't really things at all.
There is nothing on there that can really be given.

Creepy.

Clay Aiken is Martin Short's long lost son. I'm convinced.

 - 

18 days!

Is it Christmas yet??!!?! I finally finished all of my Christmas shopping and now I just want to give everyone their gifts!

Travel Plans

I have come to a realization. Really I guess it's more of an understanding. I don't want to be here but I don't know where I'm supposed to be instead. I'm looking for opportunities to take.

I believe without a doubt that Utah was where I was supposed to be from April 2008 until recently. But someplace that used to feel like home has suddenly become so foreign. I used to think that I would be happy living in this beautiful state forever. I still think that this state is beautiful and I will miss these mountains but I know I'm supposed to be somewhere else. Sometimes I feel like I belong anywhere but here. But I know now that it's not so much Utah that I'm running away from, but it's somewhere else that I'm traveling to. Utah was just a short stop on the way. I know that now.

I've fulfilled my purposes here and now the Lord has more for me to do elsewhere. And when He is ready to show me where He will open the doors necessary and guide me on to the next chapter.

It is my hope and prayer that everything falls into place sooner rather than later. I can't wait to see where I'll go next!

My>Dsmbr

Accident

Today marks the 1st anniversary of my 1st wreck.

What Gives?

I was so happy. I was the best version of me. Why take that away? What am I supposed to do now? Where do I find the courage to do it over again? 

Is it me?

God, if everyone else "knows best" does that make me an idiot?